Sorry it has taken me so long to review the results of Nicholas's EEG with all of you. I wanted to take my time in writing this post so that I could clearly communicate this message. I believe that anxiety is a very important issue to understand for all parents of children diagnosed with PWS.
It is an ailment that can effect every moment of every day for the individual who suffers from it. It is the robber of happiness, the thief of normalcy and the harbinger of paralysing fear.
It can effect things as important to a child as his ability to learn. Fear and nervousness can effect their ability to relax and enjoy all that the world has to offer.
My grandfather was so paralysed by the crippling effects of anxiety, that he eventually could not leave his home and struggled to support his family. He suffered from agoraphobia, a severe form of anxiety.
But for some reason, I had forgotten all this.
As I have mentioned in previous posts, Nicholas has begun to develop some unusual issues. Specifically, some motor tics, cognitive regression, stuttering and speech dysfluency, early morning awakenings as well as some behavioral meltdowns. Incorrectly, I assumed that these issues were related to his ESES, a rare form of epilepsy.
I was wrong.
It only took an overnight EEG at Children's Hospital and a few savvy Neurologists to open my eyes.
Nicholas's overnight EEG was completely clear with no recorded spikes whatsoever. His epilepsy medication is effectively treating his condition. He is also maturing. The doctor's explained to me that most individuals seem to outgrow ESES and are symptom free by the time they are 12-years-old. But despite this happy news, I was still worried.
"What then, is causing Nick's regression?" I asked.
"How could that be?" I asked.
Dr. Harini explained that as demands increase, Nicholas becomes anxious, and is unable to cope effectively with this increase in stress. Lacking the ability to effectively process these fears, he has a behavioral meltdown thus "escaping" the increased demands. It becomes a vicious circle with the end result being a lack of learning, even regression since he fails to execute these important learning activities. She suggests Nicholas be evaluated by a psychiatrist and a behaviorist.
As I heard her words, it was as if a giant hammer falls upon my head, and suddenly I am awake.
Dr Harini explained that if Nicholas's anxiety is controlled, his cognition may actually improve. She further explained that most public schools lack the ability to understand anxiety and how to effectively teach those who suffer from this condition. This ignorance further escalates this condition, creating a vicious cycle of behavior with the end result being a lack of learning.
I am surprised at her statements. I thought cognitive testing was very accurate and permanent.
I question Dr Takeoka to ensure I am not living in denial about my son and his cognitive status. He explained to me that every winter we notice a general health decline in Nicholas. Since we tested Nicholas during this time of year, it is not surprising to him that his scores may be low. He explained that this is just a snapshot of Nicholas's progress at this moment, and not a final answer for Nicholas and his overall cognitive health. He cautions us that while anxiety medication can help control the effects of anxiety, if mismanaged it can also cause further cognitive regression and must be evaluated carefully.
He agrees with Dr Harini that with the right supports, Nicholas scores can improve.
I am relieved that both doctors agree. I breathe a little easier.
Both Neurologists emphasize to me that Nicholas is a very complex child. He suffers from many medical conditions. I must admit sometimes, I forget this. This medical fragility can also make a small problem turn into a monumental one simply because there is so much going on in his little body.
I feel foolish that I assumed Nick's issues were related to his epilepsy. I did not take his medical fragility and his escalating anxiety issues seriously.
I know now what it is I need to do to provide my son with the tools he needs to be successful in school, home and life.
It is time for Nicholas to be evaluated by a child psychiatrist.
It is time to develop an IEP with the school that is behavior-based and works to address the negative behaviors that may be interfering with his ability to learn. It may even be time to consider a new school that is more "behaviorally equipped" to handle Nicholas. I have alot of research to do.
But more importantly, it is time for me to remove the stress, nervousness and anxiety that plagues my young son so that he may enjoy his life, his family, and the world.